Into The Sane Insane Mind
I don’t see the magic in living honestly…

So a few days ago, I tried or started the attempt to commit suicide. Oddly enough I tried to do this in front of my dad. Not so sure why, but I couldn’t stop myself. I just dumped the whole bottle of pain killers on my bed and just looked at how much I would have to take to finish it all.
It had to be like 25 or 30 extra strength pills.
I pussyed out and just cried. Dad had to calm me down. I should of did it earlier so he wouldn’t see all of that. I was a pussy, I am a wimp.
To me, these suicide flare ups are just me exploding from holding this all in. The pills help hold it in, but when that stops, if that stops, what’s gonna hold me back besides the fear of pain and the fear of failure?
I don’t nor did I ever want to live.
I don’t like me one bit. I don’t like this world, I don’t like the bullshit I have to deal with, can’t stand wasting money, don’t want to deal with people’s problems, I hate people, I don’t want to deal with life at all.
I have no interest in living. Life is for some people, I think it’s not for me.

kepral:

at this point there’s not really anything I can do for his b-day since the virus other than transparency edits. yall can use if yall wanna 

kepral:

at this point there’s not really anything I can do for his b-day since the virus other than transparency edits. yall can use if yall wanna 

eeeshkin:

Happy B-Day, Koujaku!

ur perfect.

love u

swagayama:

When your friends find your yaoi stash

swagayama:

When your friends find your yaoi stash

kawaii-finds:

Super cute star jacket !

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I’m got brave enough to try and overdose in front of my dad…

How much of a dumb ass depressed asshole can I be?!


Source
hikaritoyami09:

Boys Love Forever | via Tumblr en We Heart It.

hikaritoyami09:

Boys Love Forever | via Tumblr en We Heart It.

suzuyajuzuo:

I always want to be that guy to fuck an uke.

But im a girl.

Dammit.

vamps-world:

VAMPS interview: Single of about one year, “GET AWAY / THE JOLLY ROGER” There are video comment.VAMPSインタビュー: 約1年ぶりのシングル「GET AWAY / THE JOLLY ROGER」 ビデオコメントも!http://music.emtg.jp/special/20140804146109f91

vamps-world:

VAMPS interview: Single of about one year, “GET AWAY / THE JOLLY ROGER” There are video comment.

VAMPSインタビュー: 約1年ぶりのシングル「GET AWAY / THE JOLLY ROGER」 ビデオコメントも!
http://music.emtg.jp/special/20140804146109f91

kismyhyde:

VAMPS「WHAT’s IN?」Magazine, September 2014.

by: M i k a (edits)

VAMPS - “GET AWAY” Short Ver. Music Video
 // IT’S A MIGHTY LONG FALL

teresalee33:

Finally!!

ONE OK ROCK - Mighty Long Fall [Official Music Video]

***Lyrics***

When we met

The pain is the same

It was us

Inside of me

Is where you go

Cause its too blue (I knew)

This side of me

I want a little more

The bottom side it seems I’m just a little bored

Nothingness

Don’t go it’s a mighty long fall

When you thought now is the time

Stronger it’s a wake up call

When the life’s ready to shine

It seems like gravity keeps pulling us back down

Stronger it’s a mighty long fall

You know time is up

嘘(うそ)を一(ひと)つ 愛(あい)を 二(ふた)つ

それでなんとかやりすごしてきたでしょ

でもそれじゃもう僕(ぼく)をだませないでしょ

じゃどうする どうしよう

Don’t go it’s a mighty long fall

When you thought now is the time

Stronger it’s a wake up call

When the life’s ready to shine

描(えが)きたがりな未来(みらい)に明日(あす)はない

いっそどうせ挑(いど)むなら

認(みと)め続(つづ)けよう 続(つづ)けよう

Woahh

Get up get up get up get up

Time to make a mess for what you’ve done

Get up get up get up get up

Running with the demons in your head

Lets shout it out completely

Never really want to know

Lets shout it out, we’re screaming

Woah

Don’t go it’s a mighty long fall

When you thought now is the time

Stronger it’s a wake up call

When the life’s ready to shine

It seems like gravity keeps pulling us back down

Don’t go it’s a mighty long fall

You know time is up

tomomiss:

☆ Mighty Long Fall